Wow! It's already March, almost the middle of March in fact. The only explanation I have for not writing is that I've been busy. I'm still busy. I at my college in fact type this out. so lets see what's been up. Oh yes, HOMEWORK! I have been super busy keeping up with my reading, homework, tests, and essays. Lets see this last week I had two major test. One in Sociology 2 and one for Art History. I also had a paper due for Art History the same day of the test. This was all last Thursday. Then this Monday I had another test for Political Science and I have another paper due tomorrow. Which I've finished already. I have not been lagging....much.lol. This Monday i have a quiz and i have to make up some work for my Spanish class because I missed Tuesday because I went to a field trip for my art class. We went to the LACMA. It was incredible. I loved it.

So, me and my boyfriend have been together officially for 3 months on the 6th of March. He's such a wonderful boyfriend. We have had our troubles though, but we always manage to patch things up. I honestly think he's the one. He's it! I also think that's why we always try to fix things, because we don't want there to be doubt in the relationship. But sometimes I feel like I'm the one who needs to encourage him to do something. Like comfort me when I need it. I want him to do it on his own. He is also very insecure. He thinks some guy is just gonna come by and make me swoon so hard that I'd totally forget him. I tell him he shouldn't worry because I love him and only him. But he seem give the vibe like that's not enough and it makes me feel like he doesn't trust me. He says he does, he just doesn't trust other guys. What makes things worst is that I have a lot of friends who are guys. But they are just friends.I think as the relationship grows he'll learn that I'm not some weak defenseless damsel in distress. I can handle myself.

But then again I look at how he grew up. His mother and all the girls he knew, had at some point in there live cheated on a guy. Or were the type that were in a relationship only till they found someone better. I am not like that at all, in fact I'm the total opposite. I had those little middle school boyfriends yes, but I never counted them as really relationships because we never did anything couple like. We would hang out at school, that's it. I never kissed anyone of them, because to me it didn't feel right. I'm a romantic, and I had this thing were I wanted to save my first kiss for the perfect person. But by high school i ended giving up my first kiss to my friends boyfriend's cousin. I was a junior, barely 17. Most people have had their first kiss already. I  as different I guess. The only really first relationship, i guess you could call it, was the one before my recent boyfriend. He was an army guy, who i knew from high school. I was 19. I broke it off after 4 months. Then 9 months my boyfriend and I got together. Our relationship is what i would call a REAL relationship. He's had a couple of girlfriends before me, but i guess all his experience with girls haven't prepared him for the type of girl I am.

I have principles, values, and morals. I blame my up bringing.lol. My mother is sweet little lady, but has been screwed by men since she first got into a relationship, who was my father. Then after she was only with my younger brother's father and that's all. She's a strong women, who is kind of a feminist. Though she probably won't know what that means since she only speaks Spanish. I also think it's my faith, not my religion, but my faith. I am a christian, but I am more into the word that actually going to church. Also I think it has something to do with my love for romantic novels. I love love love romantic novels. So all of  this and other things have shaped me into who i am. And being from were I'm from, no one reads! it's really tragic. I actually think i started a trend, but that's another story for another day. (blog idea?) 

So pretty much, now that I'm done ranting...the point? I think i should get the trust I've earned. Relationships are tiring and I don't like stress (it makes me sleepy). 

But seriously, he's a great guy.  He brings my mother fruit, which she needs to live. She loves fruit. He is always telling me how much he loves me and how beautiful I am. it's great I've never been much for praise, but i gotta say I'm digging this.lol. He's just so SWEET! He's very attentive and very considerate. I just think we need to get over the jealously. Other than that everything is peach keen, except for how much homework I have.lol.

Okay, I'm done now.lol.

Till next time Xanga.

:D